Dissipating Anguish
by Nick Maddix 8-29-2003 @ 9:33 P.M.

I can’t escape this feeling
The turmoil corrupting my brain
These questionable feelings that plague my heart
What even shields with from my own rain?

So much left to be desired, so much left to burn
So much that cannot keep me from these emotions that I yearn
Riddles swarm around the mist of uncertainty
Enough to drive me to the brink of lunacy

His name is like a slow moving poison
That melts into my skin
His breath is like a toxic fume
That clogs my heart in sin

So many tears that have been wept
So much pain when once I slept
Sanctioned into my own ambitions
Lost into the tides of dissatisfaction

Many times I’ve been saved
By those who care about my will
It fills my body with a feeling
A feeling that won’t keep me still

When love may tarnish my battered core
When passion may drive me to the brink
I know whom I can turn to for my troubles
And it’ll wash them all down the sink  

I look at myself in the mirror
And I do not see a person who’s afraid
I find a courageous fighter with a desire for happiness
That shines upon me everyday